“That was the year, my twenty-eighth, when I was discovering
that not all of the promises would be kept, that some things are in fact
irrevocable and that it had counted after all, every evasion and every
procrastination, every mistake, every word, all of it.”
— Joan Didion, "Goodbye To all That
Didion's work, her writing, particularly in essays from Slouching Towards Bethlehem and The White Album, have so dramatically impacted generations of readers like myself, on such an emotional level, that I can't help but smile in light of this pop cultural moment she's having now. For a hint at how much her work has meant to me, look at that sentence—lousy with commas and digressions. Get to the point already, right? Yet, part of why I write like this is directly linked to her influence. I'm in no way comparing my writing to hers; that would be sacrilege for even our finest writers. No, I'm simply stating that her writing, so gloriously evocative while remaining steadfastly, powerfully direct, even in its occasional meandering, has left a mark on me, and on the way I think and express myself, both verbally and in written form.
Didion is an icon to introverts, malcontents, and other assorted outsiders who struggle with feelings of inadequacy and an inability to fully express their interior lives and emotions. I count myself among them, these people, these highly sensitive self-survivalists. Like them, I sometimes feel the only way to purge my feelings is through the written word. That's what Didion has done for decades now, with extreme and often uncomfortable honesty. And by doing so, she's been our voice, especially in those times when we felt too overwhelmed by life to speak for ourselves.
Thanks to your post I've discovered a writer I have never read, never even heard of. Joan does sound right up my street, so I've just copied a transcript of "Goodbye to All That" to read over the weekend.
ReplyDeleteHappy to introduce someone to Didion's writing. I trust you'll find it as deeply affecting as I have for years now. "Goodbye to All That" is definitely one of my favorites.
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